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Friday, July 29, 2005

tooo slack ger!

argh! i slacked yesterdae and todae..and i'm lagging bhind again...in terms of revision and tutorials... kinda stressed during school todae...den i bcum vv pek cek and vvvv fan3...1 reason is coz the weather vv hot.. made mi reallie fan3...den i realise i haben done alot alot alot things... made mi even more fan3... like i could scream at anibodi at anitime.. just cannot sit still at all..i hate this type of feeling.... yar.. so.. during maths lect. lim hui and daryl notice my behavior...and asked mi why... den i just complaint to them and after toking out...i kinda felt much betta.. thanks loads!
hmmm..yesterdae, is coz my mother was telling not to keep studying... no point si du shu..yar..must spend time with family oso larh..but rite...there's onli 5 more weeks... 5 more weeks...and i got so many things undone... if i dun ever bucked up now... i may still b getting like BEE? which is so undesirable... i wan ABB.. not ani C ani D ani E animore.... excessive mugging is not good i know...but i kinda enjoy studying sumtimes...and i'm trying to enjoy study eberitime... yar.... den its more fun!!!! hais... stop toking animore.... go do sth more effective ks....
haisssssssssssssssssssss.........................

Monday, July 11, 2005

argh..i guess i'm oversensitive yar..

hmm... argh..i dunno wad happened to mi todae again... haha..actualli i'm not vv stress... but was kinda...oversensitive by sum tings.... yar... in school..eberibodi is mugging like hell larh.. and i guess i'm pretty much lagging bhind by them..though i tried to study vv hard le...guess i gotta b much much much more efficient!!!! i duno why i vv affected by vvvv small things...i dunno why..... i realie dunno why..... like just now on my way home... there was this bicycle bhind honking..so i just move to the side larh...den tt stupid bicycle man scold mi say i move here move there...WTH larh... if u noe u can pass my side...wad fer honk so loud.... idiotic larhs... and tt kinda spoil my mood againn... small things...and yar..it affected my mood alot alot alot... school may not b tt fun... yet i oways have my classmates to spice up the life now... the FDU! haha...its oways with u all during breaks tt i feel vv relac... haha..and can b my real hyper self... other den tt...i tink i'm quite not normal yar.... and i kinda missed my old self...the happy me..don't care about anithing..and just luff luff luff eberidae...its much more fun tt way.. but guess frm now to prelims....and even a's... i will not b tt animore..sorri frens... just gimme this period of time to settle my studies down... and after tt i'll b back to the old shufang.. the smiling hyper self...yeash....
aniway..i pass my gp...unexpectedli..and i improved my compo... money not wasted yar... but i could have done much much much betta in compre..yar...

Friday, July 08, 2005

arghhhh argggh!!! i hate my grades!

argh! i noe i need sum rest now....but i cannot afford the time..... if i don't study hard now.... i'll b doomed fer prelims... i'm realie on the verge of breaking down but i can't! i need to continue studying! i dun1 to cry over my grades when i receive my prelim results... i wan to be smiling... i wan to see myself happi.... yar...jct..is over...grades are out..no point crying over spilled milk... its just grades ONLY afterall... YET its time fer mi to reflect..i had been slacking and slacking the past few mths.. if i dun start to do anithing now... i gonna b a gone case... yet i tink my heath is giving way.... argh!!!! SHUFANG yOu musT study hard.... no point just saying you must... SHOW IT>>>>> ACTIONS SPEAK LOUDER THAN WORDS! its within your means... just study n study... study smart...don't study fer the sake of saying you are studying... you need efficiency.. you need to reallie do ur vvvvvv best! I wan straight As fer A's... I wan I wan I wan!!!!!!!!!!!

JCT grAdes!!

MATHS: 73 B ... aRgh!!! itS not eVen an A yet...YOU MUST GET A... abOve 80... i wAn it i wAn it....and i will get it! you need practice...don't ever think you can get through like what u have done this time... studying time less den 1 day...and expect good grades..you'll never b tt tyco again and you must do better den this time!!!!

PHYSICS: 45 E... yeash..i pass it... yet this is not my best shot! i can do much much better than this......if you study harder n harder! i dun1 to disappoint mr lim...i noe i'm not smart..but i blieve that qin neng bu zuo...... i wan at least a B! a B fer prelims! and A for A's!!

CHEMISTRY: 20! F!!!!! HORRENDOUS HORRIBLE TERRIBLE.... THE LOWEST EVER GRADE IN MY LIFE.........
I DON'T EVER WAN TO SEE SUCH GRADES AGAIN!
YOU MUSTTTTT GO AND STUDY HARD!

HMMM.....iTs not that i wanna mug hard...its just that i have no choice but to mug.....

i noe i'm overstressing myself now... and i might not b able to take it... but its all in my mind... NO COMPROMISING!

saying i'm not sad fer my grade is fake.. indeed i'm realie vv upset.... but... i don't wan to show it..i just luff n luff as if i'm sooo happi.. but inside mi...its not...its realie not hapi... i wan to show that i can i wan to!!!

i'm sorry if i sounds terrible... i dunno i dunno... i'm vvvv stressed....i noe i can't afford to fail animore... i noe i have to do it.. i noe i can do it... but................

i shall seeee how....

argh....guess perhaps..i should go to have a good nite sleep ferst..and seee how ltr....if i can wake up.... actualil is i must wake up at 5am to study!!!!!!!!!!!!!

arggghhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! wad iffff.... i reallie fail prelims.... arGhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!
dennn.. i'll b in year 1 again!!! arghhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Friday, July 01, 2005

JCT IS OVER...BUT.....hais

hmmm... the much-hated jct is finally over.... not happily over..but yar...its still over larhs.. don't tink i'll do well at all... no...shld say dun tink i can even pass...argh!!! phy...was a killer.. fer mi at the vv least.... section b.....could b a single digit (quoted frm zongrong) hahaz... yar.. fer moi is the same case larhs... i happili followed the obvious trends frm the previous year paper.. and skipped sum year 1 topic during e crucial mugging time (the nite b4) when i had studied everything during the hols... and my intuition told mi quantam wunt come out toooo... arggh!!! my intuition failed mi totalli... i was soooo confident when i go school.thinking..my phy...yeash..finally i can do well... but...when i was on the seat in the examination hall.. and as i flipped over the ferst page of section b... i got a shock of my life...... WAVES.... omigosh...i din't studieddd......at least i din't bother to memorise the formula... den i flip the next page....emi....i studied...but the question sooo short.... the picture so farnie... and there's so much lines drawn fer u to ans.... the best part is...the number in the bracket...is pretty large...yea... tt meannnss..a.r.g.g.h!! qn3.....op-amp supposedli to b my favourite...but wad the hell is the circuit drawing larh...but tt 1 mabbe i can score larh....4th qn!!! quantam...another shock!!! and i guessed i'm pretty screwed even b4 the tcher even say start writing..... den tsunami! arghh! ok although dey said tsunami was a killer..but u noe wad...tt's the onli qn i tink i can do=x oOops... but mabbe like get 1/2 of the marks there onli... hopefully an o passs...i hope i pray and i wish...yar!! i guess my secton c was pretty ok.. i tink i can pass larhs..yar=p k...next paper...gp!! i was damn stressed..not bcoz i nv study..is coz i tink i spend alot of time...and money too(gp tuition) so i cannot afford to not do well.. after memorising sooo much facts... i went in..and still did a qn on education...when it wunt ever appear in a levels... wad the hell am i tinking larh.... wad's the use of go memo facts..when i din't use it in the end... i studied so much on globalisation.. but i just don't dare to touch on it... i'm a dan xiao gui larhs! i scared on the expanse of trying will earn mi a failed grade..i'm just over-excessively scared...yars... my compo.... i spend too much time in the front..dun tink i will doo vvvv well..but guessed i've done my best but i din't write enuf still.. compree...hais..dunno leh..no comments on it too...yar... so after gp..i had two days break... i spent most of my time on chem... which i totalli gave up on the nite just b4 chem... i omost broke down bcoz i reallie couldn't understand or get ani fact into my head fer chem.. maths while studying DE fer the very FIRST time two days b4 the exam too... tears nearli roll out coz i dun understand at all.. but guesss...hmm..DE was vv easy afterall and i'm glad i din't gif up.... so it was like 1am.... 7 hours b4 my chem paper start... i was contemplating to continue mugging fer chem or shld i slp... in the end i chose my sleep.. coz i reallie gave up..... dunno wad i'm studying oso... guess its my own fault...but truthfully i did studied finish(but not = to memorising) fer chem b4 i started physics.. i read every single chapter... but i guess tt's not enuf at all...owing to my slackness during the 2nd term... yar... so i can't blame anione but myself.... actualli..chem paper was not as hard as i expected...but it was still very hard fer mi....coz...... i duno why...hopefully an o pass..which is pretty hard too... but i still hope fer one too... i handed in a blank paper with onli my name...haha..fer section c..but i dun bother..i noe tt qn i noe...but i nv fill in at all...wad am i doing larh...tt qn i tried to memo like hmm...3 weeks ago...but...haha...due to my gave-up spirit the nite b4....i din't go n touch food chem again..... bad choice...stupid mi... but guess...nth can compensate it nimores...yar...so... i can just look ferward to prelims.... n just study 10 times 20 times... infinity times moreee!! argh... maths paper was pretty easy i suppose..though i tink A is still a big problem fer moi... haha..but truthfully i din't reallie study much fer maths..so i dun expect too much... i onli studied..memo sum of the topics.. after chem b4 maths... yar toking bout tt period of time..was quite fun too..haha...actualli i din't have ani place to study.. so i was like abt to go in sc rm to study myself... but the rm was locked..but sian diao..... den jansen appeared say he oso wan to study inside (haha..great mind tinks alike!!) hee... so we told gabriel to help us open the rm... haha...den we started to mug...den alex fiz ivan n roys came in too...dey were stunned when dey see us inside larhs... so the 6 of us studied inside...so farnie..like long long long time nv step into the rm... the feeling of it being OUR room is back again...with no 29th inside (coz they having their exams)... sooo cool alrh...i love the feeling.. of our clique being in the sc rm..luffing n luffing n alex entertaining us....blah blah blah..though it can b damn irritating when u are trying hard to study..hahaha..but it was a pretty nice time (fer mi i tink) coz it realie relieved my stress... yeas... thanks ppl... it will b even betta if yh,2 zr & zq were inside too..... den can b sooo fun together... the 10 of us! We must meet eberi morn at the table outside sc rm ok!!!! guess our frenship will last fer a long along long time (i reallie hope sooo) i realie miss sc rm...not sc rm actualli... is the times.... when we slack fer lectures... we slack together..we smuggle food into the rm... we played bridge..times seeing them throwing litters all over... times we kope shirt kope things... times which we slacked arnd even though our class ended... the feeling of u ponning lecture and was "stunned" there was sooo many ppl in the rm too.... the times dumping everything in MY locker... the times we scribbled on tables.... the times each of us book 1 sofa to sleep (EVERY SOFA will be filled)... there's just tooo much memories... that i wanna keep....... we no longer own the room... but we can still go in TOGETHER! hahaha.. clique rocksss... hmmm..yesterdae went out with dem oso..to watch movie...but i was reallie vvvvvv tired.... until i could just sleep aniwhere arhs... tt's y i was vv slow in reacting.. haha..but i still chose to watch movie with dem n not go home n sleep...hee...and the movie was nice too.. war of the worlds... guess its pretty much the ppl tt makes eberithing nice too.....

from tuesday onwards... i gonna b a full-time mugger...don't scold mi fer being one... i have no choice....i cannot afford to lose ani more time... coz of my slack attitude fer the 1 1/2 years... if i continue slacking... i will end up needing to go to poly and waste 2 years in jc...i dun1 to b tt... i gonna go library after school eberidae..i promisreeee myself!!!! don't ever break this promise if not i will nv fergive myself..... SHUFANG, you need at least a ABB fer prelims........ i dun care...i wan it i wan it... u alreadi gonna flunk your jcts... with RED colours.... and you are not gonna to fail animore fer prelims...if not you are doomed ger! bucked up bucked up...its within your power to do it.... u cannot procastinate animore...u have less den 3 months!!!!!! to catch up with 1.5 years work...... you betta betta betta...study very very very very very hard... ABB!!!!!!!!!! no compromising... if you never get it... you'll die!!!! haiiiss/////i feel like studying now le..gonna go pack up eberithing n start studying tmr!!!! bleah...morning wake up study den go tuition ...okies????? yes! i gonna do tt.... but i will still spend time with my frens...hee.... coz dey are the one who made up who i am!