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Sunday, January 30, 2005

i'M sCreWed!

Haix...if i don't put all this down, i'm gonna crAshed down sOonn...

hAixx...i juz dun like anything now...

fancy me spending whole of my last week doinG chinEse nEw yeaR publicity stuff...and get screwed by everyone....

i spend my afternoons...EvERy aftErnoons..... they can just say this suck that sucks....but they dun even understand anithing...

i'm doing things for nth...juz to get screwed...and its my responsibility....

i got not enuf manpower...and this is MY fault too...coz all of dem are too busy with their pdp...dey assume that this is my fault too... but what do dey noe? knowing that i'm lousy to get dem down to help.... i DID dedicate jobs to them... and whAt do i get? complaints bhind my back... and how did i noe? thanks to a mis-send sms.... since dey dun1 to do... i'll do it... coz i noe it will b undone... and i'll get screwed, but did ani1 appreciate it... HELL NO!~ Can see that eberi1 is drained...and I AM too!! Just don't see the point of doing soooo much things... when no1 is there to encourage you.... but just throwing stones at you.... this not good lar...that not good lar...what you doing man~ yar all these comments..... Even my parents are screwing mi up for going home so late eberiday...and think i too kaypoh... Issit wad i want? I hope to get eberithing done...tt's y i am doing eberithing... coz eberibodi seems to have their own things....

eberi1 is worrying bout their studies...but i dun even haf the pleasure/time to do so.... even zhiyong is asking why my face so black... coz i'm reallie not happpiii..not happi at all... i dun even haf fren to complain this things to... i can juz cry in my slp...drop tears.. that's y these days i keep saying i want to slp...coz tt's the best times that i can have.... Nobodi is helping mi to get out of all this... i reallie to tired to carry on...let they say i'm lousy for all they want... coz i noe that even ppl tt i trust in are doing these bhind my back... i've reallie contributed lots of my time and effort if dey wanna critisize so be it... i juz got no energy to deal with all those... eberi1 juz noe to say bad things bhind ppl back...and not to help at all... (politics blah blah blah) miSs ahs.....

but seriousli, i see no point of doing all these things le.... PEARLS points... hell no~ you get the same as wad eberi1 does... but u put in so much time in it fer nth... i shouldn't have ran fer house captain..coz i knew i wasn't up to it.... I juz wanted sum "fame" that time i suppose..i'm stupid larh.... reallie stupid... reallie n reallie n realie.............now i can onli do wad i can do... i'm not going to go an extra mile to do alot things..just gonna fulfill my responsibility tt's all... all my dreams is crashed... coz i dun blif in ppl in tj nimorez... i've learnt from zr dey all... no point doing so much things le......... reallie hate sch... juz wanna concentrate on my studies le......